8/8/2011 Should Be Lucky But It's Not.

Yes.. I returned to my blog after 4 months..

The purpose of it is to share what I thought about today, on the 8/8/2011..

And yeah.. I know that MUnited won against MCity and I kinda like it..

I thought this day would give me a great luck for this week..

Unfortunately, nothing has changed..

So back to my story..

I was in a very good mood today because I thought that the Luck of Manchester United can bring joy and happiness to my life for a week.. It's like an aura..

But somehow, there's a damage increaser to it. (Sorry, thought about DotA..)

Then.. I felt that same strange feeling that haunts me for quite sometime now.

It's like I just killed a person without realizing that I killed them.

*Okay. I wouldn't wanna use people's name because it hurts them more than it hurts me.

[Last Week]

That feeling I felt.. Was my best friend, which is also my best friend's best friend too, ignoring me for the past week..

Well.. I sensed something weird but yeah.. I thought there's a brick wall trying to separate us..

So I asked her about it.. I told her what happened and.. *glass breaks* it happened..

Coming back to today..

My another best friend told me that I did something very wrong and after I think about it.. I started to cry a little.. Trying to hold back my tears..

It's because.. I made a very big lie.. Yes.. I admit it.. I made that to save my own soul but eventually, I was very wrong about that..

I like a girl.. Yes.. It's a guy's feelings towards another.

But I don't like to share with people that I can't trust yet.

So I kinda shared wrong stories about my best friend during class a few months ago.

But now, I felt very bad and very sad because I can't fix the problem.

Now, the person that I wanted to take to the prom with, doesn't want to talk to me anymore like we used to.. She will eventually get closer with my classmate sitting beside me.. Slowly making me a history that made her very happy from the start of the year.

I don't know what are the reasons that made her feel that way but.. I can feel that we were not like we used to be..

Well.. I'm not trying to be desperate.. I just wanna make happy memories with her so that I can feel good about it before I step into NS camp or College Life.

In class, I kinda cried for the whole 2 hours.. Managed to hold back some of it so that teachers don't think that I'm in a mood swing.

What I thought about it during that 2 hours were,

"What can I do to fix it?"

"I wanna apologize but I scared her group of gang be mad at me."

"The girl that I wanted to take to the prom with doesn't care about me anymore.. I wanted to call her on the phone but I just scared that I'll make her even more unhappy."

"How am I suppose to ask her to the prom as my best friend when I made a very crappy statement?"

"Oh man.. When I looked that her talking so closely with my classmate sitting beside me, I can straight cry for help."

And lots of thoughts about it.. for 2 hours straight.

Well.. I kinda released everything in my head now..

Now my missions are :

1. Finding out why the person that I wanted to take to the prom with being so quiet lately.

2. Apologize to her for what I've done.. and really thought of doing it without anyone around including the one sitting beside me.

3. Apologize to the class gang for being a selfish "jackass"

4. Make sure I can focus and let it all go before Trials starts.

5. Ask her to be my prom date on Friday during MPK. (I really have no choice. It was set during World Stage.)

That's all I can say.. I apologize to those who are reading this right now and I sincerely apologize to my best friend and my another best friend for making situations like this. And I really wanna apologize to the girl because I didn't talk to you a lot more. I wish I can really change my life around and just pick up that phone and dial her number, hoping she would answer my call and just talk. I just hope everything goes back to normal and life can be much easier after all these..

And thanks guys for helping me.. I know that it's wrong.. Thanks again for the advice..

I really do.

I'm back from 2010 to 2011~

Haiya! A few months later.. Or should I say a year later.. Because I am not that active in blogging.. All I have been doing is making random commentaries and disturb people? xD nevermind.

Okay, for the past few months, I've been thinking of doing commentaries.

Modern Warfare 2 Commentaries..

And recently, I have tried doing Live Gameplay/Commentary..

What's the result?

FAILED! Have to removed all my hard work and restart it all over again.

But it was delayed because I don't have the time to render the videos and audios.

For non-geeks - it means that compiling videos and audios into 1 file.

Besides talking to myself in front of my computer, I have a big interest in music industry (but I can't produce music.. o.O)

Songs like "I Need A Doctor - Dr. Dre feat. Eminem and Skylar Grey" gave me a motivation and suddenly.. I just kept it repeating, and repeating, and repeating.. Wow.. It's nice.. Especially that song that I stated just now. The story is rather epic if you listen to it at least 5 times.

I praise Dr. Dre and Eminem man!

and

Recently, I just bought "Call of Duty : Black Ops" for my partner-in-crime Jia Wei as his birthday present. Actually, we all shared the cash to buy.

And I was excited to look at my 1st Original Game DVD..

Yes.. It came all the way from the USA baby! No Malaysia non-piracy tag on the cover.

Then, I had my BM and English Aural Presentation. What have I done? Stressed out and failed in speaking. It's not like what I did in my commentaries.

Here's 1 of my video for my commentary.

Yeah.. That was last year, and I talked shit.

Well, I don't have much things to talk about now. So, I gotta end this with a little quote made by myself :

"May you live your life without hurting yourself emotionally,

and love is always a triumph to every life in the universe"

The End

2010, Form 4...

New year, new resolutions,
Wait, I don't have any.
Form 4 tough year.
That's everyone says.
I believed it!

Add Maths almost fail,
Sejarah same,
BM same.
What else?

Okay, 5 months ago,
I got into 4 Batai, which is my current Form 4 class/2010.
My 3 Angsana guys were separated, left me solo-ing for the next 2 years.
I have to sit right behind the class..
Here's the picture..

Wong Weng Han, if you guys can't remember, it's this guy drawn with arrows and right in front of me.





Damn, those are the days.
A lot of things have changed after then..

Call of Duty 4, people also play, including SMKDJ students.
Check it out.


1st - Myself
2nd - Hakim from 4 Cengal
3rd - Shi Wen from 4 Cengal
4th - Jia Wei's bro (Form 1 this year)
5th - Alex (dunno who's that)
6th - Jia Wei
7th - Stanley Chan Chern Nam from 4 Angsana
8th - Soon Chuen from 4 Cengal
9th - Bryan Loh from 4 Cengal
10th - Shawn Ong from 4 Angsana
11th - Nicholas Cheng from 4 Cengal also.

Hard to say that they are still in training.

I think I better leave it as it so..

Unfulfilling dreams yet to be achieve.

That's all folks.



The End.

It's The End... of 2009

Just a little copyright from the song "End" by Simple Plan.

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end.. Woah.
Girl you know, it's not so bad.
It's not the end, woah..
You know it's not the end..

As the lyrics written, it's not the end of the world.. It's the end of the year.. And also it's not the end of your life.

I'm glad that this year I had my life lived to the fullest to overcome some obstacles, some were failed to achieve things that I never had.

I'm also glad that my PMR results were impressed my friends and family. Sort of.

I would like to say thanks to everyone for making this year a better year. Especially those who supported me all the way to the end.

I just hope this won't be my will.

I'm sorry this is a short post because time is crucial.

Thanks guys and have a great year.

The End of 2009!~

It's A Week That Worth Learning! (A Practice Run before the true blogging starts.)

What am I gonna say for today?
1 word..

LEARNING!

There are many things that I learned this week.
1 of them is..

WAIT! I DON'T LEARN!

Okay.
Recap from last week. (16/11-22/11)

On the 16th, FREEDOM because parents went outstation.
On the 17th, My bro's friends (Kitson, Jimmy, Jer Min, Carmen, and Sean) stay over for 1 whole day.
On the 18th, parents came home and tuition (pain and suffering).
On the 19th, normal sitting in front of my com, not blogging..
On the 20th, Plain boring.
On the 21st, 2 events - My CoD4 Clan Gathering + Yuk Chai School's "Thousand People Dinner"
On the 22nd, I got sick and having a fever.

About the Dinner on the 21st, you can read it through this link created by Jia Wei. Link!~

Again, last month, Call Of Duty : Modern Warfare 2 was released worldwide. This game is 1 of the best games in the Call Of Duty series. I was waiting for it to be released for 4 months (even before PMR exam i kept waiting for it.) Now, I don't have the disc because my brother didn't manage to buy from a cheap pirated store, and have to wait at least a week to get the disc and play. I'm sorry if I don't have a picture to prove. To say the least, I can't wait to play that game. Jia Wei has the disc and he showed it to me on the day where we have dinner at my primary school. That's where I get jealous. >=O!!

This month until December, I'm going to practice my blogging skills for my clan's blog.
Having English Language skill is not enough to make yourself a "Living Legend".

A word for the people who can't wait patiently for a chance to get what they want.

Be patient and don't let somebody end your streak chances with tricks or traps.

The End.

Love Drunk Or Desperation? (Tambah AAR Concert!)

WOW!
HOW LONG HAVE I NOT UPDATE MY BLOG?!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!
I CAN DIE SKIPPING MY PART!!

Ok.. Back to topic..
Currently, I damn pissed off and quite sad too..

Because I have already lost someone and I got jealous!
(Natural right?)

Love drunk huh?
Try being deperate with someone that he/she didn't know that you are so desperate over him/her..

AAR Concert!!
Ok.. Last Saturday I get to go to AAR Concert with my brother and his/my friends.. Not much to talk here.. All the songs in the concert are freaking cool! Dirty Little Secrets, I Wanna, Gives You Hell.........



If you guys want proof, here is the picture! Taken by a photographer from a DiGi Volunteer.



*Tips, try to find the guy with the white & blue-striped shirt next to Weng Han.
Extra : My brother.. A big headed guy + Dragon ball hair.. Easy to spot! xD

So I said it..
Desperate + Love Drunk
"Losing someone is bad enough, losing your life equals losing your all..."

The End..

Disappointment to Holiday...

It's been too long that I didn't write a single post in here..

Time to crap now...

Err..
Crap...
Damn crap...
Oh crap...

Ok.. This is stupid...

Time to be serious..

In 13 days,
All Form 3 students will undergo PMR exam...
Which is time for them to panic...

Panic is just a 1 word saying that you are prepared somehow... [Source : Internet =.="]

This Hari Raya holidays, we have A LOT! of time to prepare...
Some procrastinate, some play smart, and some play crap...

But I pity the peeps who took the extra paper for the exam...

Well, that's all I can say for the day..

1 last thing,

Holidays is just the time where you can party temporarily.

Don't think that you can rest and keep your hopes up for nothing.

End!